Over the next few weeks I have two law exams, both worth 70% and as per the standard operating procedure for this time of the semester, I’m three weeks behind in study. Needless to say, I’ve been a little stressed out. When I get like this, I remind myself that Jesus, my almighty God, creator of the universe, says ‘do not worry’ (Matthew 6:25-34) and to trust in me (John 14:1). He says this because he can take care of my worries for me. It’s like if I were out to dinner with someone, I wouldn’t say ‘don’t bother paying, I’ve got the bill’ if I couldn’t actually pay for it.
Despite focusing on this small revelation I had a few months ago, as I drove to Uni on Friday I still felt that lump in my throat and knot in my stomach. I said to God, ‘If I’m trusting in you and you promise to take my worries away, why am I still feeling like this?!’ Indirectly (and without realising it then), I was asking God if he had forgotten his job; made a few ‘wishful thinking’ comments when he wrote the Bible or whether he had forgotten me.
I continued to drive and this song came on – What if his People Prayed by Casting Crowns
I love this song, the chorus is:
What if His people prayed
And those who bear His name
Would humbly seek His face
And turn from their own way
He said that they would hear
His promise has been made
He’s answered loud and clear, Yeah
If only we would pray
So I prayed, that God would answer my prayers, get rid of this sick feeling and help me to let go.
The next morning, my daily devotions book had 2 Chronicles 7:12-22 as the scripture reading. I couldn’t believe it verses 14-15, are the basis for this song (these things do not happen by coincidence!):
’14 Then if my people who are called by my name will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sins and restore their land. 15 My eyes will be open and my ears attentive to every prayer made in this place.’
This is the key to saying goodbye to that horrible worry.
God promises here, to answer our prayers, forgive our sins and restore us if we follow these 4 steps:
- HUMBLE YOURSELF;
- SEEK HIS FACE; and
Well it’s safe to say, that with questions like ‘Why are YOU God, not helping ME?’ inferring I deserve to be helped right now (which I don’t, it’s only by God’s grace through Christ’s death that I am), I was not being humble. The Oxford Dictionary defines humble as ‘having or showing a modest or low estimate of one’s importance’.
That sick stressed feeling in my stomach still existed because a small part of me thought God might not really be taking care of it all. I might just hold onto some of my worry to help God out, in case he has too much on his plate, you know? …Crazy right. I am like an ant dragging a tiny crumb thinking if I take that to the human’s table then it will help satisfy their hunger. What a joke!
Without being humble and lowering my self-importance, I won’t be able to learn how great and powerful my God really is. I won’t be able to completely embrace the peace which follows from trusting in him. So this is my goal, to seek God without a self-centred heart so that I can learn to trust him. It won’t happen over night, but God promises great things when we pray.
P.S. If you follow me on instagram, you would have seen that yesterday was 3 years since Rees asked me to be his girlfriend – when I said yes, i didn’t know he would end up my husband! How blessed I am and how time has flown! The flowers above were in celebration of this.
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